A Single Dad's New Start

I recently got out of a long-term relationship and became a single dad to my two kids. It’s tough balancing everything alone. Last night, I found myself with unexpected free time and decided to treat myself after months of restraint. I ended up at a local BDSM club for the first time, feeling both nervous and excited. Inside, the atmosphere was intoxicating, dark leather, intense lights, and people exploring their kinks openly. I met a couple there who invited me to join them in one of the private rooms. We all agreed on light bondage and verbal role-play. She tied me up while he played with her, occasionally throwing in commands for me too. There was something thrilling about not being able to move as they explored their desires together. Afterward, I joined them more actively, enjoying a deep, intense penetration that made every inch feel electric. It felt freeing and new, but also slightly scary. Is it normal for someone like me, a stay-at-home dad, to crave this kind of experience? How do I balance the need for these experiences with my responsibilities at home?