feeling complicated lately

i mean we r engaged and all but sometimes i wonder if he really gets it. not that he ever said anything negative or complained. just like maybe he cant see me fully yet, you know? the way others might look at me now and only see woman and not the whole person inside. i feel torn because on one hand i wanna be myself, all of it, but on the other hand this new identity is still growing into itself too. its hard to know if hes there for both sides of me or just half of what he thinks he sees. i mean its all consensual and we talk about stuff when needed. but sometimes in bed even, id want him to look deeper inside me than just the skin. like im sure he knows more than he lets on cuz how couldnt he. but still feels like there r secrets in my body hes yet to unlock.