Took Her Secretively During Finals Week

So yeah, I've been dating Jane for a while now. We started off slow and built our relationship up bit by bit, making sure we were both on the same page about everything. She's a great partner and supportive of my studies too. But this week was final exams, which is stressful enough without anything else going on. Jane and I have this history with her being kind of sexually adventurous, she enjoys roleplaying and pushing limits within our relationship in ways that make me feel like the dominant one sometimes. I don't know why, but I've always felt like there's something missing when we're intimate during normal times. Like it's lacking some spark. This finals week though...I dunno if it was just stress or what, but for whatever reason I wanted to do something secret and naughty. She had no idea I was planning anything, we were going out for dinner with her parents last night instead of me doing the final prep work that everyone else seems too busy to sleep over. We left early and ended up driving way past their house, until I pulled into this secluded spot near a lake where I knew no one would find us. It was dark outside when we got there, which seemed fitting somehow. I didn't even bother with the foreplay or anything, just kinda took control of the situation, you know? We were parked in an awkward position and it wasn’t exactly comfortable...but the thrill made it worth every minute. I can understand why she might be mad at me for breaking our plans like that. I mean, her parents would've been wondering where we went off to. And we definitely both needed to focus on finals. But honestly? There's no way I'd go back and change a single thing about what happened last night. Maybe it was just how badly I wanted some excitement amidst all the stress, but either way, doing something like that while she was expecting something else...it made me feel alive. Yeah, it might seem silly or even wrong to others, but this little rebellion felt exactly right for us at the moment. Sometimes you need to break the rules just to enjoy yourself a bit more in life. I'll have to make sure we handle any fallout carefully though; Jane’s parents are pretty traditional about these things and we don't want them to ever find out. I didn’t plan on sharing this, but writing it out makes me feel less guilty somehow, like maybe this was all part of a greater pattern than just one night's impulsive act. Oh well, it’s done with now and there's no going back.