all these thoughts i have.

okay so i just went on a date with this guy and we ended up at his place. he's been hitting on me for weeks but it never felt right, you know? and then tonight i was like oh why not, let’s see what happens. long story short, the sex was... well, it wasn't bad but it also wasn't great either. and afterwards there we are, laying in his bed staring at each other as if we're waiting for some spark to happen. and you know i just have all these thoughts swirling around my head like am i really this picky or is everyone else out there just a little boring? maybe it's me, maybe i need to open up more and not be so uptight about the whole thing. but also... why do i keep thinking about this one guy from work who would never go for someone like me? so yeah i'm confused, wondering if anyone else has these thoughts or feelings. and also, does it ever happen where you end up in bed with someone and just realize you’re not really that into them? am i the only weirdo out there?