just wanted to feel alive again

so i was hanging out with my ex a few weeks back, we were technically still friends but it was kind of awkward. so i decided to see if he wanted to rekindle the flame, not because i actually missed him but because it felt like it would just be fun to fuck someone and feel alive again. i went over to his place late at night, kissed him and started making out on the couch. he was hesitant at first but then got into it. we ended up in bed pretty quick. i straddled him, both of us naked, my wet pussy sliding down onto his hard cock. he filled me up so good, felt like ages since something had been inside me that wasn't my own fingers. i started riding him hard and fast, bouncing on his shaft as we both grunted in pleasure. our bodies were slick with sweat, his hands gripping my hips tight while mine played with his balls and chest hair. after a while we switched things up, him pounding into me from behind, me leaning against the headboard, the headboard hitting the wall with each thrust. it was intense and raw and kinda sad but also so freeing. like i could finally breathe again after being suffocated in my own skin for too long. done now though, never saw him after that night. just wondering if this is normal or weird? does everyone have a random urge to relive an old connection purely through sex sometimes?