Hidden Fantasies and Regrets

I married my high school sweetheart, a decision I’ve never regretted. Yet there’s this dark corner in my mind that holds secrets I never dared to share, not even with him. It all started last year when I joined an online kink community out of curiosity. I never expected it would lead me down paths filled with bondage and domination fantasies. The more I explored, the deeper into these anonymous chats I sank. One day, a fellow member proposed a roleplay scenario that was so enticingly taboo, yet exhilarating in its danger and secrecy. Despite knowing it was just pretend and consensual, something about crossing this line felt like a betrayal to my marriage. Now, months later, I can’t shake the guilt. I wonder if others hide such secrets too. Do you ever feel like your fantasies are more than what you want them to be? What do you think someone who loves you would say?