Experiment In Self-Discovery

I did something today that was outside my usual comfort zone. My wife and I are into trying new things, but this one felt different. We called it an experiment, but it ended up being more about figuring out what I secretly crave than anything else. Not sure if it means we need to change our dynamic or if it’s just a weird phase. Chopped sentence here: didn’t mean for it to go that far...but did. Trying to make sense of why this feels both unsettling and oddly affirming, but mostly, I’m questioning how my desires have evolved over the years.