Hidden Desires of a Stay-at-Home Parent

I’ve been struggling with something that’s eating away at me lately. It started small, a flicker of desire when I thought about our neighbor, a man in his late thirties who has a reputation for being charming and adventurous. But it quickly grew beyond casual thoughts to fantasies that feel increasingly intrusive and wrong. The truth is, the longer we’ve been together, the more I find myself yearning for something new or different, and these fantasies are one way they manifest. It’s not like I’m doing anything about them, but the thought of my husband, who has always been so loyal and loving, doesn’t do it for me as much as it used to. And that terrifies me.