feeling things out

so i just got out of this long term relationship and i was like totally ready to get back into the swing of things but im still so confused. my ex is all over social media with her new boyfriend and it makes me feel weird, not jealous, just lost really. anyways, i had this one night thing last week with someone from a dating app and it was...i dont know. i didnt feel much except for the physical stuff but afterwards it made me wonder what im looking for now that its all over. i mean, its been a month and i still keep thinking about how we used to be such an item and all those late night talks we had about our future. it feels like this huge chapter ended without any of the closure stuff people talk about and now im stuck in this weird limbo where my past is haunting me but my present feels so disconnected. its been tough trying to figure out who i am again without her in my life.