Lost My Heart on the Sales Floor...

I used to work at this huge mall, in one of those tiny accessory shops that sells jewelry and trinkets. It was a pretty dead-end job with only three other employees, but I thought it would be a good way to start building my professional life after high school... or so I thought. My boyfriend of two years broke up with me right as the holiday season kicked off in full swing at work. He said he needed space and time to figure himself out, and that we were drifting apart. But I just wanted someone to talk to! The holidays were supposed to be a fun family thing, but it was a mess this year without him... so I turned to my coworkers for distraction. That's when I met Sarah, the newest clerk who had started just as everything fell apart with us. We'd chat during slow hours about how we missed our significant others and how we needed that special someone back in our lives. She told me her partner of six months wanted to break things off too... But then, one night when she was working the later shift at the same time I had a shift until midnight, we started talking about all these fantasies and desires neither of us had ever dared share with anyone before. Things got heated over the register... We were so caught up in each other, trying on different roles and making out behind closed curtains while customers walked by completely clueless... I thought it would just be a one-off fling to get over my breakup blues, but then we started spending every off-duty minute together too. I told myself it was just for comfort, she understood me like no one else did after everything with my ex... But as the weeks went by, it felt more and more real. And now? I'm completely torn up inside again. My boyfriend reached out saying he wants to try things out again but I'm stuck here on this emotional rollercoaster with Sarah, who confessed that she too has doubts about her own relationship ending soon... What a mess, right? Maybe I should just stick to my boring retail job and pretend all of this didn't happen...