i cheated but needed my kinky fix

its been months since we last spoke, hes a stranger now. but back then he was more than just someone i knew from online, hes how i discovered kink. when i first started exploring bdsm it was all alone in the dark of night, dreaming of what it could be like with another person. he understood me, even before i did myself. we talked for hours about the things that made my skin crawl and tingle at once. everything changed one weekend when she went to visit her family out of state. hes never been here before but i showed him around like a good host, dressed in all the right clothes, wearing makeup he liked. then came sunday night, the hotel room we booked for just this purpose. its dark and silent as hell but there are voices in my head calling me to come closer to him, to let him be dominant with me. hes gentle but firm, showing me what i truly want without needing words to say it. i woke up early monday morning, still feeling dirty yet satisfied. weeks have passed since then, not a word between us, just knowing we both did what was needed in that moment.