Just Another Day of Not Being Noticed

So yeah, I’m this trans guy in my twenties who’s pretty comfy with being single and not really looking to change that anytime soon. But today was one of those days where it felt like the universe had decided I wasn’t worth noticing at all. Work was a total grind, no exciting conversations or anything. And when I got home, instead of someone waiting for me with open arms, or even just a text, there was crickets and my cat staring back at me from his little spot on the windowsill. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining about being single per se. It’s more like...today made me realize how easy it is to feel invisible when you’re not in a relationship. And if that sounds trivial or whiny to anyone out there, well, screw them. But anyway, what really got me thinking was this fantasy that popped up while I was mindlessly scrolling through Instagram. You know the ones where your crush actually has some kind of weird supernatural connection with you and can like, feel your heartbeat from across the room or something? Yeah, that’s exactly what I had, except instead of a heartbeat thing, it involved me being able to smell this one person from my past, even when they weren’t around. And if I was honest, the way those memories triggered everything else...let’s just say it ended with some pretty explicit daydreaming.