missing my touch

i havent been with anyone for a long time now and honestly i dont think im ready to be with someone just yet. its hard though cause sometimes at night i wake up feeling all alone in this big bed and wonder what itd be like to have that warmth next to me again. one night i got so lonely i ended up touching myself to feel some comfort but even then it wasnt the same. there's something about having another person touch you, really understand your body and desires, that makes everything better. its a weird place to be in right now, wanting closeness but not sure im ready for commitment. missing my touch, missing someone else's.