... i finally did it ...

so my girlfriend and i just broke up a couple weeks ago. we were together for 5 years but it was clear she wasn't happy anymore and wanted to move on. we both agreed it was best to go separate ways. i've been trying hard not to think about her all the time, even went out with other people briefly just to get my mind off things. nothing really stuck though - i still dreamt of us together. the past few days i kept having this intense craving to call her and beg her back. it was driving me crazy thinking what she's doing now, wondering if anyone else has touched her like we used to. last night after a long day of work, the urge became too much. i called her on the spot. she answered confused but willing to listen. told her how sorry i am and that i miss her so bad it hurts. said i want us to give this another chance, no matter what she feels - just needs one more try. begged till she finally said maybe we can meet up tomorrow night and talk about it properly. met at a coffee shop like old times. sat across from each other but could barely look at her without wanting to kiss her right then. took a deep breath and asked if there was still any chance for us. she said she missed me too, that being apart has made her realize how much she loves having me in her life. so we agreed to try again - both of us hesitant but hopeful this time can work out differently. grabbed each other's hand as soon as the words left our mouths. i leaned in for a kiss and it felt like coming home, all that familiar love pouring back into my heart. walked her home later talking about all the ways we'd change things to make us happy. reached her door, started kissing again, couldn't stop now if i tried. she led me inside and there on her bed, in just a few minutes of being together again - it was everything, fingers tracing every inch of skin remembering how much i crave her, her body against mine, soft sighs turning to gasps, sweat pooling as we moved together again like old lovers rediscovering each other. made love for hours, finally sated but feeling that hunger still there even now. i know it's not conventional to just call someone back after breaking up and beg them back so suddenly - but i couldn't help myself. was this normal? too needy on my part? hope we can actually make this work now but feel like a fool for giving in again so fast. tell me what you think, if anyone has been in similar shoes before. thanks for listening.