Another Failed Attempt at Commitment...

So here I am again, another grad-school dropout with no real direction in life. Tried dating apps for a bit, but it was just too much effort to meet someone who's into my brand of dry humor and sarcastic observations about the world around us. Recently, though, I stumbled upon this rather odd kink, let’s call it an unusual turn-on: watching people play out CNC scenarios in the safety of their own homes or through video calls. It’s like a weird mix of control and safety... but is that really healthy? I mean, there's no real risk involved for either party, just lots of fantasy and roleplay... Does this kind of thing worry anyone else, or am I overthinking it again? Anyone out there with advice or experience to share?