Exploring New Zones of Desire

So yeah, I'm in my mid-20s and been with Alex for four years now. We've had some amazing experiences together, but last night was one that left me questioning everything. It all started when we decided to try something new, you know? Like those online chats where they talk about pushing boundaries. We talked for a bit beforehand, just making sure both of us were comfortable with the idea. And yeah, it involved role-playing and a bit more dominance than usual. I mean, Alex always keeps things interesting, but this felt different somehow. Not that it wasn't consensual, we've never done anything without talking about every little detail first. Anyway, during the act itself, there was this moment where I just let go of everything else and focused on the sensations. It was exhilarating yet scary at the same time. Afterward, though, I couldn’t stop thinking: What does this mean for us? Does it change how we see each other now? I guess what’s bothering me most is whether I want to delve deeper into these kinds of things or not. On one hand, it felt like an escape from reality, a place where the only rule was whatever made both of us happy. But on the other hand... well, I'm starting to wonder if there's something more here than just exploring sex. It’s hard to put into words exactly what I’m feeling right now because so much is swirling around in my head. Maybe that’s why I’m writing this, trying to sort through everything before we decide how far to take it next.