A Quiet Secret...

I've been thinking about this for weeks now, feeling the weight of it every time someone brings up a past or future relationship. I’m in my twenties and have never really found anyone that clicked... but there’s this person who comes to mind when I least expect it. We’ve talked about wanting to explore something deeper but it's always been just flirting over text messages and online calls with whispered promises of what could be... It feels so secretive, and honestly kinda taboo too, like we shouldn’t talk about anything outside our little chat sessions because it’s not real... What if I am the only one who wants more than casual? Is this okay to even want from another person...?