A Secret I Keep Hidden

It started out like any other night, cozy evening with my partner of two years. We've been through a lot together and things are good between us, or so we say. But tonight was different. Something inside me just... snapped. I remember thinking about how close we were supposed to be and how I loved him deeply, but the thoughts in my head... they weren't matching up with what was happening outside of our bedroom walls. It's like I wanted more than he could give, or perhaps, more than I should take from someone so dear. We ended up kissing, something felt different this time. The usual rush wasn't there for me. Instead, I thought about her, the girl at work, a flirtatious colleague who knows how to make my heart race in ways he doesn't anymore. Her laugh can send shivers down my spine when no one else's can. I don't know why I'm telling this story here tonight. Maybe it’s just because secrets weigh on your soul and need to be shared, even anonymously. It’s hard, keeping these thoughts from him, it feels like a betrayal, but maybe that’s what passion does sometimes: it takes you places you weren’t expecting.