After the Split-Up

I haven't really talked about it much since the divorce, but there's a lot that happened in those last few months. It started with us trying new things to rekindle what we had, roleplaying different scenarios, playing out fantasies we'd never done before. But something wasn't right, not anymore. The spark was gone, and these attempts just made it all the more apparent. One of the last times we were together, there was this moment where I wanted to be someone else for him. It was part nostalgia, part fantasy, I guess I wanted to take us back to a time before everything fell apart. I tried dressing up in clothes that reminded me of when things were good between us, but it felt hollow. Like a shadow of what we used to share. We ended up stopping midway because it didn't feel right at all, like the distance was too big by then. There's no point dwelling on that now though. It's over, and I need to move forward from here.